grow up all ready

I finally feel like a grown up. For a very long time I have been remotely unaware of my impact on the world around me. Why should I be aware, I'm me, just a lowly nobody that no one notices. I sound pretty pathetic don't I? Well I am done with that, I am an important person who does impact my world and who is worthy of notice. I am also realizing that I deserve to be treated like someone who matters. I am not a door mat! I am not a door mat! I keep repeating this and try and take it into my heart and truly believe it. I have found a personal relationship with God and seeing myself through His eyes has given me some serious perspective.

I am blogging as I go through this process because I realized that this may be harder than I thought. While I have been living this new lifestyle for about a week I am realizing that when I try and stand up for myself I just come off as mean. I am really struggling with how to say no. My God, my family, and my church (which includes MOPS) come first. Not that I ever want to say no to someone who really needs me, but how do I figure that out? How do I do everything I want to do but also everything I need to do?